unpolished thoughts 3/10/2019
How do you put things in order when everything is messed up?
My apartment is like that this morning. One clean and organized room is the artifice that hides the total disaster lurking behind every other door.
Luckily, the day is mostly open. I have my work cut out for me.
Having time on my side opens up possibilities, but it was the lack of time – or, more likely, the perceived lack of time – that got me in this mess in the first place.
The to do list, the daily routine, the unfinished business put off yesterday, the interruption that seemed important enough at the time to drop everything else – and here I am.
The first three hours of today were also disorganized. What normally would be accomplished by now is only just getting started.
Then there is this idea I had in my head about spending some time today doing some real self-care.
Small annoyances have built up to the point where it’s obvious that they are contributing to the overall discombobulation.
In other words, knocking one item after another off the to do list doesn’t entirely make sense when my body is telling me that I need to slow down.
I’ve had days like this before. They often end with astonishment that the time flew by and x, y, and z still didn’t get taken care of.
However, I’ve decided that today is going to be a good day.
Cleaning up and getting organized goes perfectly well with self-care.
A friendly environment where things are in order helps create more space in the mind. Being able to think makes it easier to breathe. Being able to breathe makes it easier to take care of our responsibilities.
There is nothing fascinating here, just the everyday maintenance of the prerequisites for living.
In this case, the everyday means acknowledging that maintenance has recently broken down and needs to be reassembled – because it’s clear that the slide has gone on long enough. If it continues further from here, things really do fall apart.
But that’s not acceptable.
Because there are still so many fascinating possibilities waiting to be engaged with.
“Put your house in order!”, they say to me. “We are waiting on you. We have secrets to share!”
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