unpolished thoughts 3/28/2019
If my math is correct, today is the 105th consecutive day that I am publishing on this blog.
(Day 1 was this post on December 13 of last year.)
Really? That’s crazy!
I have learned a lot by reconnecting to my love of writing. It’s a very good exercise to struggle to make order from your thoughts every day.
Some days are more of a struggle than others.
Although all you see here is the finished product, perhaps you can imagine the amount of work that goes into some of the pieces I have written recently.
I have not been entirely faithful to the “unpolished” part of these “unpolished thoughts.” My “unpolished” first drafts have often been polished many times before I publish them.
It has become increasingly common for these daily posts to take up a significant chunk of my day. Obviously, this reduces the time for other things.
I write constantly about having the sense to notice when you are overworking, and how to change that pattern from the very beginning.
It’s time to ask myself if I am taking my own advice.
There is nothing intrinsically important about writing these posts.
What is important to me is that I become a better teacher and show up more completely for the people I love.
Ideally, I learn over time how to be less distracted by what I have to do next, so that I can be more present in the here and now.
It’s become obvious that letting go of publishing this blog on a daily post is an important next step in my own growth. There are too many things that are important to me that are not getting enough attention right now.
I don’t have an exact formula or schedule for how I will proceed, but publishing these words today is my way of beginning a new process.
This is me officially giving notice that I’m no longer going to act as if it is my obligation to show on the internet every day like this!
Any creeping sense that I am here for any other reason than because I wish to be feels like a signal that I ignore at my peril.
After all, my intention here is to offer you a perspective about living your life comfortably. I firmly believe that Moshe Feldenkrais’ famous phrase is a good one to live by:
“If you know what you’re doing, you can do what you want.”
Now feels like a good time to focus a little bit more on “knowing what I’m doing” and a little less on “doing.”
If you have found value in what I have already done up to this point, I’d like to invite you to support my ability to continue developing new offerings by investing in some of the many products I have created up to this point.
It is the product of hundreds of hours of work over the past two years and I have literally poured my heart and soul into it.
I firmly believe that it can be a vehicle for you to rewrite your story if you are ready and willing to do so.
Now it’s time for me to reimagine and rewrite my own story.
(It’s not the first time and I’m sure it won’t be the last.)
I’m hardly about to disappear, but I might not publish any unpolished thoughts tomorrow. Most likely I will adjust the rhythm, but continue to publish on a fairly frequent basis.
We’ll see how it goes.
If you’ve read this far, you might ask yourself if you find any reflections of my story in your own life:
Is there something that you do every day that feels like an obligation when it shouldn’t be?
Would the world actually come to an end if you didn’t do that one thing tomorrow?
Would you have to rewrite the story you tell yourself – about who you are and why you’re here – in order to let go of part of your current daily routine?
If that could open up new possibilities for you, is that something you would be willing to consider?
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